My Sweet New Year’s Reflections

Looking back on the months gone by,
As a new year starts and an old one ends,
We contemplate what brought us joy,
And we think of our loved ones and our friends.

Each year I resolve with the strongest intent
To be better this year than the last.
And I work very hard; the rules hardly get bent,
But this discipline gets hard so fast!
I don't wish to soar up high,
but take my little baby step,
carefully accomplishing what i have in my mind
As long as you stand by!!!

Well i think i didn't log in for some time and this is my 1st blog for 2009!!
I wish all of you Happy New Year and Best Wishes with blessing from above

Love you all!!!

'Fight' a Process of Understanding

Many times in a relationship, We find that we fight and argue a lot even for small things.

It is one of life's many lessons but yet one of the hardest to learn.
Like kids who fight for candies, this is a bitter sweet symphony.

Sometimes i wonder why i have to go through this process,
but many times i find that it is a valuable lesson.
We fight, fight not to 'really fight',
but fight to get to know each other.
A process of understanding love.

There is no love without an argument,
and if there is one,than there must be something wrong.
This is not what i say, but this is what i observe.

I wonder why often there is this 'break up' or 'divorce' incident,
for things which does not seems relevant,
but after all, its one's destiny of love.
To whom we belong to at the end!!

Recalling memories of my 'understanding process'
I am glad that i am with the right guy.
I know he is different, and that is why we are still together.

"Fight is something to draw you close with your loved ones"
and not something to draw you far!!!

Crush

It might be years back when we had our first crush,
those times when we use to be young and innocent.
Time passed by and we might not remember that very often,
till you meet someone else and fall into another crush.

This time it was not like that,
as my best friend made me to think,
who was my first crush???
surprisingly i can't recall any!!


I know i had, but i guess it doesn't matter anymore!!!
Since i have someone who worth more than a crush.

So i guess i only have one crush, and i hope that will be my only crush.

Sweet Fever

Its just the start of sem break and I am feeling under the weather.
I just hate being sick because I'll end up being like an old dog.
Plus, i am having problem to sleep. Like an owl i stay awake just staring at the white ceiling.

Though i hate being ill, I am glad to know that someone is concern about me.
Well its none other than my sweet Bhubie and of course my Mum.

What really touched my heart was last night memory.
At about 11pm, Bhubie came to my house and he bought for me some orange juice, chocolates and my favorite cheery flavor lollipop. I was so happy though i had no energy to even show how happy i was.

I am glad that Bhubie is my sweetheart. Though we see life from different angle, we still do
love each other no matter what.

I don't really wish to get sick but if I do, I don't mind!!! (HEHEHE)
Who wants to say No to chocolates and lolipop especially if you get the chance to see 'Him'.

Frustrations In Life

Never thought it would be so tough growing up, sometimes, I just want to give up.
But there is always a little voice, inside of me to cheer me up.

I guess life ought to have tough times.
But eventually hard times will bring you happy times
It just depends on how you look at it

Things tend to happen for a reason, Which is hard to see at first time
You won't see it unless you go seek
Sometimes it takes time to see it,
But most of time all it takes patience

Be patient, and tough times will pass
Rainbows are hard to be seen,
Unless it stormed recently.
Everything will be sunny soon.

Just be patient

Loneliness

Now days, i just sit and feel like i am lost in nowhere. I can't sleep,
I can't eat and I can't do anything but just feel lonely. So here I put down
the feelings in simple words, but this is too little to explain how I feel.

Loneliness is blue like sadness.
It tastes like a sour lime with salt on it.
It smells like rotten food and causes madness.
For fun it likes to do nothing but bad things.
While almost everything makes it angry
Everything makes it sad,
But nothing makes it happy.

Loneliness is smaller than you and me,
But bigger than peoples' minds.
Happiness is its enemy,
But nothing can be its friend.
Loneliness keeps its happy feelings in a secret place.
Its favorite place is in peoples' minds.
But it hates to be anywhere else.
Making people feel bad is its greatest success.
Not cheering people up it is greatest failure.

Loneliness makes me feel as sad as a deserted island.

Differences

There is a part of me
That feels I am different from everyone else.
Something that I can't quite see,
Something that I can't quite feel,
Something so unreal.
But this 'thing' is always there,
This 'thing' with others, I will never share.
So I push it to the back of my mind,
All the thoughts of looks and clothes
And famous, it is hiding behind.
Sometimes, when I have almost forgotten,
It comes back with such ferocity,
Angry and unforgiving.
I feel so lost and sad,
Whatever caused this feeling
Must have been so horrible and bad.
A lost memory or something else,
I'll never know,
Whatever it is,
I know for sure,
I can never let this feeling show.

I wrote this poem when I was going through a really bad patch in life. I thought that no one ever understood me and that I was totally different to everyone else. It's not a very long poem, but it's all my feelings in words.

My Angel From Above

Whenever I'm feeling lonely
Or maybe feeling blue
I think of all the things
All the little things you do.

Whenever I feel lousy
And seem to have a frown
I remember all the funny times
And you just turn it upside down.

Whenever I'm depressed
And need you by my side
I remember all the sweet things you say
To make the sadness go away.

When I need a shoulder to cry on
You are always there
Taking away all my fears and loneliness
when my life's a mess.

When I need a best friend and even someone to love

You are there for me, like my angel from above.

Serenity

Gentle serenity is what you are,
and your love makes me feel
well above par ... calming my pain
time and again, serenading my soul
and making me whole.

You are blessed with tranquility,
an angelic star - you bring joy and romance
wherever you are.

Crippled Mind

Illness of the mind,
However caused,
Destroys the "Who"
But leaves the "I am.

In Those Rare Moments I See Truth

What spirited heart drives me thus?
Frenzied madness . . . I must refrain!
Spoiled little child, make such a fuss,
How the ego of youth is vain!

Fight though I may, never will I win:
The battle lost before the start;
Self- centeredness, my greatest sin,
Corrupts my mind, the sacred heart.

Why the need to so glorify
The self? My stay would be of use;
And so, live less a life of lie,
If not others would I abuse.

Well, it is such that people cry,
For the world is not a nice place,
Much less good my heart, yet I try,
Compassion show and sins erase.

Colors of our life

Our lives are filled with color from the start,

and Red is the love that comes from our hearts.
Blue is the sadness that drips from our eyes,
but Black is the evil that makes us tell lies.

Green is the shade of jealousy and rage,
and Grey is the hair that comes with old age.
Purple is the mood most misunderstood,
but White is the color that Makes Us Feel Good.

Life is full of meaningful colors,
But Especially White.
So hold on to it tight.

Perception

There is many a time
You seem to read my mind.
But in the end
You can't know what I intend.
Your view of my actions
Are clouded by your past attachments.

Your memory guides your comprehension.
If only you could change the definitions.
Erase the imprints on your heart.
Make a new start.
Allow me to ease your misery.
Let us make our own new history.

In Times Of

My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness.
It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth ...
Yet finds no direction.

My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness.
It yearns to find warmth and happiness ...
Yet it somehow eludes me.

My eyes seek out visions in times of want.
They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them ...
Yet they cannot see the light.

My ears listen earnestly in times of silence.
They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console ...
Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me.

My arms reach out frantically in times of despair.
They seek strength and compassion to enfold me ...
Yet they find nothing substantial to en wrap.

My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude.
It poses intense questions that demand answers ...
Yet there are none to be found.

~♥~
My hand reaches out earnestly in these times of confusion.
It dials the number of a familiar and calming voice ...
And gratefully, my lifeline to sanity ... remains intact.

I need 48 not 24

Its so hard for me to manage my times as it is not enough at all when i see my to do list.
Sometimes i get so messed up with things and tend to go crazy than now. Oh how am i going to get things organized. Do you have any idea of what i can do???

Please kindly leave your brain for a while!!

Something from the firmament - GOSH -

It was on a sunny Sunday afternoon where I was sitting in my veranda reading my novel when I heard something hitting the floorboards. No, you would not believe what it was actually!! It was a baby’s diaper and how on earth someone ever thought of throwing that from their balcony. Well if this was the first time, I certainly don’t mind but there are many things coming from upstairs. The other day I found cigarette lighter, socks, a knife and others.

How pitiable they could be to do that. What they have their brain lost too!! Mind my tongue but this is KL City and I am on the 9^th Floor. How on earth a well refined person could ever do that!! I got my nerves on the devil’s flap but I could not do anything but just tick off them through my murmur. I just could not wish more. I have a mysterious neighbor right above my ceiling. I should just prepare a silo ready for their debris.

The Devil Wears Prada

THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA is the work of fiction I am going to be breathing with for one fine year. This is going to be the foundation of my research paper; with reference to the novel and the motion picture. So far my research was on foot up exploring the novel. Conversely, my aim is not only to draw to a close up on my mission but by bringing into being of a good piece of research paper but also leaving a sense of fulfillment to myself and also to the one who is going to study my research paper.

Well maybe you might brood over, why on earth I am writing about this novel which has a shoe picture on it. The deal here is not about the cover but the content. It is after all about the content of the novel. I bet you have watched the movie too!! But do you really considered what happens when a novel is adapted into film. Here where my journey begins to discover the exquisiteness and revolting of film adaptation of the new genre CHICK LIT- a candy covered novel for women who love words.

10Things about Me (Tagged)

1) What is the most important thing in your life?
Hygiene is very important.

2) Where do you wish to get married?
Garden OoOo the beach.

3) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
Only GOD knows

4) Are you in love?
*Wink*

5) Hugs or kisses?
Both. Hugs to feel warm and kisses to feel loved and cared (on my forehead)

6) 8 things I am passionate about:
- My Mum
- My Bubie
- Novel
- Ice Cream
- Teddy Bears
- Music
- My puppy
- My plants

7) 8 things I hate in my life
-Lies
-Backstabbing
-Breaking Secrets
-Drink
-Smoke
-Flirt
-Bad Words
-“Wannabe”

8) 4 things I say too often:
- Ohmygosh!
- OoOooOo.
- You know what
- Oh yeah

9) 4 books I've read recently:
- Nanny Diaries
- P.S I Love You
- Bridget Jones: The Edge of reason
- The Devil Wears Prada

10) 4 songs I could listen to over and over again:
- Mariah Carey – Touch My body
- Chris Brown –With You
- Shayne Ward - Breathless

I want to tag JOOD and anyone who reads this

6 Secrets about me (Tagged)

Jood tagged me!!

I should post six secrets about myself…my my my 6 is a big no.!!

1-I love to sing and dance in my bathroom

2- I am scared of horror movie

3- I pierced my nose 7 times (It didn’t work the last time)

4- I didn't want to learn driving bcoz i am scared of the road

5- I can’t sleep without my teddy bear (at least i need my bolster)

6- I always say No to things i like and Yes to think i don't like

I would like to tag anyone who reads this

Phuff, here goes my old post

Sob Sob Sob...i have deleted all my older post for some technical reason. But it doesn't matter now i am back with my new thought and new words and of course not the new me. So stay tune and enjoy breaking blogspot with me

From Text to Film

Since this is my final year, GOD bestowed a faily serious task to be carried out according to my preferences. Well it is nothing but my final year project paper. Being a literature student always inspired me. Now it has even made my journey more motivating and snooping of how fun things going to be with the topic I choose.

FILM ADAPTATION. Something which always bugged me ever since I watched Da VInci Code. How disappointed I could be when I got to know the novel which made me glued on my couch was not as good in film. Dan Brown had made me null with the beautiful writings he have done and not the director.

After few reading of film adaptation, I finally understood how certain they have to be and what elements they have to ignore when a literary text is adapted into a film. Well now at least I got my anger gone by knowing the truth. So here I am fervent to travel my journey and give my best shot.

Under the weather

A sick week, a sick week, I missed my class on Thursday and Friday and here I am still caught with these cute little creatures called bacteria. Coughing, sneezing and tearing with the soreness of my nose, throat and body.

My entire body feels so scrawny and worn-out yet I’m so anxious with my classes. It’s my important year and I can’t miss my classes. I just hope I will get better soon; the best I could do is take my medicine on time and pray for some healing.

HATE BEING SICK

Psycholinguistics Fun

It was at the beginning of the semester where i actually was hanging on my line whether or not to take Psycholinguistics. Finally before the end of week 2, I and Jood made our mind to take this subject. I was not much in interest but looks like life is getting better with this subject.

Our topic is on Chapter 5 Language acquisition,production and comprehension in children. Its kind of interesting just because it covers up about how children starts to speak. From babbling to perfect speech. I'm looking forward for it. Well GOOD LUCK to me and also JOODY

A Life Poem

Life can seem ungrateful and not always kind.
Life can pull at your heartstrings and play with your mind...
Life can be blissful and happy and free...
Life can put beauty in the things that you see...
Life can place challenges right at your feet...
Life can make good of the hardships we meet...
Life can overwhelm you and make your head spin...
Life can reward those determined to win...
Life can be hurtful and not always fair...
Life can surround you with people who care...
Life clearly does offer its Up and its Downs...
Life's days can bring you both smiles and frowns...
Life teaches us to take the good with the bad...
Life is a mixture of happy and sad...

So...

Take the Life that you have and give it your best...
Think positive, be happy let God do the rest...
Take the challenges that life has laid at your feet...
Take pride and be thankful for each one you meet...
To yourself give forgiveness if you stumble and fall...
Take each day that is dealt you and give it your all...
Take the love that you're given and return it with care...
Have faith that when needed it will always be there...
Take time to find the beauty in the things that you see...
Take life's simple pleasures let them set your heart free...
The idea here is simply to even the score...
As you are met and faced with Life's Tug of War